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What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Blacker

A Memoir in Essays

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A Finalist for the NAACP Image Award

Longlisted for the PEN/Diamonstein-Spielvogel Award for the Art of the Essay

An NPR Best Book of the Year

A Washington Independent Review of Books Favorite of the Year

From the cofounder of VerySmartBrothas.com, and one of the most read writers on race and culture at work today, a provocative and humorous memoir-in-essays that explores the ever-shifting definitions of what it means to be Black (and male) in America.

For Damon Young, existing while Black is an extreme sport. The act of possessing black skin while searching for space to breathe in America is enough to induce a ceaseless state of angst where questions such as "How should I react here, as a professional black person?" and "Will this white person's potato salad kill me?" are forever relevant.

What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Blacker chronicles Young's efforts to survive while battling and making sense of the various neuroses his country has given him.

It's a condition that's sometimes stretched to absurd limits, provoking the angst that made him question if he was any good at the "being straight" thing, as if his sexual orientation was something he could practice and get better at, like a crossover dribble move or knitting; creating the farce where, as a teen, he wished for a white person to call him a racial slur just so he could fight him and have a great story about it; and generating the surreality of watching gentrification transform his Pittsburgh neighborhood from predominantly Black to "Portlandia . . . but with Pierogies."

And, at its most devastating, it provides him reason to believe that his mother would be alive today if she were white.

From one of our most respected cultural observers, What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Blacker is a hilarious and honest debut that is both a celebration of the idiosyncrasies and distinctions of Blackness and a critique of white supremacy and how we define masculinity.

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    • Kirkus

      The co-founder and editor-in-chief of VerySmartBrothas documents the evolution of a city, a family, and a man using language that runs the gamut from irreverent to uproarious. The author, who is also a columnist for GQ, provides an inward-looking examination of the foibles, desires, and fears of a black man attempting to make his way in the world, the questions he asks along the way, and the destructive forces (sometimes controllable, sometimes not) that threaten to break him. This cultural landscape is steeped in the legacy of America's domestic immigrants who carved paths out of the South and into the steel and mining towns of Pennsylvania. Young's aspirational personal story parallels the trajectories of other descendants of the Great Migration. By sharing snapshots of his growth from adolescence into adulthood, he offers a glimpse into the crucible that shaped his personality and his politics, both of which came to define the aesthetic of VerySmartBrothas. But where VSB is rooted in the transactional here and now, the author's memoir explores the template upon which white supremacy is based and the recurring themes of oppression that permeate every aspect of black life in America. That Young does this vis-à-vis the tragicomedy of his own experiences makes each vignette that much more poignant. Everyone in America has some level of adjacency to the N-word: how it's used, how it's received, and the context in which the usage is deemed acceptable (or not). In addition to mining that explosive aspect of the cultural landscape, Young also looks at the extreme lengths to which men will go in search of love; how to know when to talk and when it's time to listen; and the fear of failing ones' family and how that sometimes manifests poorly in black men as opposed to more successful strategies employed by their partners. Health disparities, gentrification, and low expectations operating as a de facto form of violence on the bodies and minds of black people are among the author's many prescient themes. Young sharply conveys important truths with powerful effect.

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    • AudioFile Magazine
      Damon Young's deep, gravelly voice rolls through one's ears like a musical bass line that one does not want to stop. Whether delivering jokes or speaking about how he struggled with the loss of loved ones, his voice commands attention and delivers catharsis time and again. From growing up in Pittsburgh to becoming a successful writer to navigating the politics of race in the ages of Obama and Trump, Young reconciles his blackness, his sexuality, his family, and his success despite living in a culture preternaturally determined to make him an outsider. Both his words and his delivery will engage listeners and give them a more profound sense of what it means to be black in a white culture, even for successful people of color. L.E. © AudioFile 2019, Portland, Maine
    • Booklist

      Starred review from February 1, 2019
      Columnist, blogger, and editor-in-chief of VerySmartBrothas, Young delivers a passionate, wryly bittersweet tribute to Black life in majority-white Pittsburgh. Raised by devoted working-class parents who, despite education, talent, and hard work, endure chronic homelessness and ferocious joblessness occasionally interrupted by microbursts of underemployment, Young bounces between suburban and urban schools, constantly reassessing his self-worth and his Blackness. His barbed riffs on gentrification, Black barber shops ( one of the few places where Black men with papers and without college degrees could find honest employment ), basketball, appropriate use of the word nigga, and the obtuseness of white privilege are sharply observed. Young articulates the mingled bemusement, rage, and terror of living in a relatively safe and superficially Black space . . . enveloped by whiteness. On the political front, he writes, For the first 2 hours following the election of Barack Obama, I knew how it felt to be a white American . . . I was reminded of the danger of entertaining that delusion when my black-ass president appeared on the screen and the only thought I could muster was, ?Please don't let those motherfuckers kill him.' A must read.(Reprinted with permission of Booklist, copyright 2019, American Library Association.)

    • Library Journal

      August 1, 2021

      PEN-longlisted essays from the co-founder of VerySmartBrothas.com, about growing up Black and gay in Pittsburgh.

      Copyright 2021 Library Journal, LLC Used with permission.

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